what's up with me!

I don't know how to describe how i am now. i feel blaah.. maybe it's because i slept late and woke up early just to read my history book. the long test was really tiring. it seemed easy but complicated.
Then, afterwards, I went straight to the chapel to pray. (for theo) See? That's the problem. Bat kailangan ko pang sabihin na 'for theo'? I was there, reading the 'how to make a good confession' pamphlet and realized how many little sins I make that I don't include when I confess. What is the essence of making confession? Sometimes I confess, just so I'm doing what needs to be done. But there's no real contrition or realization that I'm not doing my duties as a Catholic. I feel like I have been thinking to much of myself lately. I've forgotten God.
You know how usually when a person is asked what his/her 'life statement' is, he/she is most likely to answer something like: "I wanna be able to live for the moment. And not regret having tried the things that I could have tried." You know what, you don't need to DO things all the time. You don't need to always push yourself to learn or to move. Sometimes it's okay to be steady. I believe something is also earned in stillness. But when do you stay still, and when do you move?
What happened to my inner life? I don't feel happy. Honestly. Sometimes I feel depressed, sometimes there's just no feeling at all. I fill up my days thinking of what I can do to improve myself, or what I can do so people around me will be happy being with me. I have found nothing. Because I keep on loving so I can also be loved. I got it all wrong.
Anyway, I've got all these thoughts running round my mind right now. I wonder what I can do. Help. What do I need to do? What's lacking? How can I stop being so selfish.